The past few hours, since last night really, I've been toying with the idea of making a small portable altar where I can store my handmade goddess figurine from my gf, some stones and what not when I head off to the larger college. I like the idea of being able to close it all away when I want to. People won't be able to see it or touch it. I like the idea of having my own little private altar sacred space.

I only have a few ideas for it yet, nothing really solid, but I want to complete it this summer. I'll probably have more details later as I sort this out more, but I think I'll be able to get a better idea after I discuss it with my gf. She's pretty creative and could probably help me out with it a lot.

So, has anyone made their own little portable altar? I'm planning on using something like a jewelry box but without the area's to store necklaces and rings and stuff.

And instead of being generally happy and cheery and really happy that Spring has finally arrived, I'm stressed and disappointed with school. I feel like I'm ready to completely give it up. I'm ready to stop school now because I'm so frustrated with things. I'm tired of having to do constant mind numbing work and I'm tired of never having the time to myself that I want. Where is my time to slow down?! My thoughts might be more coherent if I wasn't so tired. I should go to bed and get a good night's sleep.

So what is everyone planning for Ostara? I'll probably light a candle, do some meditation and thank the Lord and Lady for the arrival of Spring. I don't have any other plans, and doing a full out ritual just isn't in my nature really. I like the simplistic rites that still have a lot of intention behind them. I'm not sure what else to do tomorrow. Anyone else have any suggestions? One's that are simple and don't require me blowing any cash? I haven't had chance to do a lot of work this month since school has been riding my tail. Regardless I'm going to try and get in touch with the seasons and get back into the swing of things.

So, I decided to join Covenspace, and I only heard about it today! I guess we'll see how this fairs because I'm not really sure about this place. Not sure if I can handle another myspace! lol.

 So, my mother came to school today to take me out to lunch. That's nice. She took my girlfriend too. Problem is she doesn't know we're dating. That definitely puts a wrench in the works. She went on and on today about grandkids and other anti gay stuff that really hurt. Sometimes, things look good, like they are in my favor, and then something like this comes along and it really hurts. It shoves me back into a place where I haven't been in awhile and the cycle starts all over again with me becoming completely comfortable with myself and enjoying life and then I get bumped back down into a lifestyle choice that I'm not happy with. And it took me so long to become comfortable with where I was. I hate that people can't be accepting and understanding.

 Being in a closeminded Christain household can do that to a person. I guess I'll just have to life with it until I am out of the house for good and even then I know things won't be the best as it can only get worse from there. I guess it's good I'll be transferring to another school this coming year which will make it harder for me to get home all the time. That will lessen the stress on myself. It'll be nice to be able to be more free than I am now. I know I can't continue living in the closet (the broom or the rainbow) forever.

I must go now. Things to do, dinner to eat. Things to accomplish before Spring break.